The idea of being able to call myself a writer has always appealed to me.
Over the years, I’ve had numerous unsuccessful attempts at writing a great novel. I struggled to convince myself that what I was writing was any good, and I could never seem to write anything longer than a short story.
But then I discovered erotic gay fiction. I discovered I was pretty good at writing that.
I started writing erotic gay fiction almost by accident. Perhaps it would be more accurate to say that I entered into the profession without giving the matter a lot of thought.
I was travelling. To get a bit of extra cash in, I was picking up some basic copy-writing work through a freelance platform — it doesn’t pay much, but it’s the kind of straightforward writing that you can do while you’re also doing other things.
I’d initially focused on the travel writing jobs, but I began to see jobs being offered to write erotic gay fiction - I thought that I’d give it a go. I’m gay. I like to read erotic gay fiction. How hard could it be? No pun intended.
I pitched some ideas, and soon had a few commissions lined up. It was time to put pen to paper, figuratively speaking.
One of the complexities with the kind of gay erotic fiction that I was commissioned to write is that the biggest audience was not actually gay men, but women. Apparently that’s not a surprise to anyone — the biggest consumers of erotic gay fiction are women who would generally see themselves as heterosexual.
The kind of erotic gay fiction that heterosexual women enjoy is often referred to as m/m. In this genre of fiction, there’s generally a strong focus on a romance developing between two main characters, dreamy guys who are probably experiencing a same-sex encounter for the first time — they experiment, they fall in love, and they live happily and monogamously ever-after.
It took me a while to get my head around that — some of my early pieces had to be revised because they were too explicit, too physical, too raw. Too gay.
I gave it a shot, but the reality was that I didn’t really enjoy writing m/m erotica — it all felt a bit vanilla and contrived. It wasn’t sex between men as I knew it, or wanted it to be.
It took me a little while, several writing jobs, and a couple of hundred thousand words, to realise that the people who I was ghost-writing these stories for were simply taking them and publishing them via Amazon for the kindle-reader market.
That’s actually not difficult to do, so eventually I decided to cut out the middle-man and just write and publish the stories myself. This enabled me to write stories in a style that felt more authentic to my experience and to my fantasies.
While my style of erotic fiction is way too gay for the bulk of the m/m erotica readers out there, I like to think that I’m occasionally providing some inspiration and excitement for gay men around the world who want to read authentic stories about guys who get off getting it on with other guys.
A lot of people who write erotica use a pen name, separating their identities to quarantine that part of their personality that connects with erotic gay fiction. If I was trying to pursue some kind of serious career, or get elected as a public official, then I might have done the same thing. But my writing isn’t something that I’m embarrassed about. I wouldn’t encourage my parents to read these books, but if they want to, that’s cool. Everyone knows I’m gay. Everyone knows that I have sex with guys. I’m not pretending to be something that I’m not.
The downside with the ease of self-publishing through Amazon is that you can update and revise your work at any time. That’s a great feature in many ways, but I’m constantly proof-reading, updating, and editing stories. Nothing is ever finished. I’ve published things that are just the beginnings of ideas, always with an intention to come back and have another go at them when I’ve got the time or the inspiration.
My writing isn’t going to win any awards. I read what I’ve written and know that it could be better. It’s never going to make a lot of money. But I enjoy writing erotic gay fiction — erotica for gay men.
One of my best-selling stories is called Play Hard - it chronicles the adventures and encounters of a college water polo team. If you're into erotic gay fiction, then you might want to check it out.
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